i want some chai tea.
and to win the lottery.
so then i can buy a big house for matthew and me.
and we won't have to go to college.
and i'd buy a puppy since i was never allowed to have pets.
and i'd pay off my mom's and grandparent's homes and cars.
and yeah... i have high hopes.
so i should waste all of my money on lucky for life.
because i need more money.

in other news... i got the placement at children in youth!
nobody knows how happy that makes me.
now i don't have to waste 2 hours a day driving to kutztown on my "day off".
and i can soon find a job.
because i'm in dire need of money.
and i wish my mom would get called back to work.
because i was really thiking about dropping out of school so i could work.
because not having health insurance sucks.
and i'd probably have to sell my car.
and not be able to drive at all since my car insurance is a million dollars a year.

i've got so much to do today, it's rediculous!
and i don't even know where to start...